My Depression Story (Part 2)

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Back to the story.
For my first year of high school we moved to another city that i begged my parents not to go there but i didn't have the right to make decisions. Worst first year of high school ever! There was a guy in my class who wanted to go out with me and i wasn't interested i wanted to study it was a really important time of my school life, and because of that he started threatening me, following me and stalking me. I told my father about the issue he decided to call the cops but the kind hearted me and mostly dumb decided that it wasn't needed.. Mistake!

That's when my depression became real. I was struggling to keep a smile or even faking it and i had to live with the fact that someday that guy might do something really bad to me. End of the year we decided to go back home and if you thought it all stops there well no. I started having really bad breakdows, i would always stay alone, i started visiting the psy.. In my third year of highschool rumors were wandering about me going to the psy because i'm mentally ill and no one should come near me so again i was alone..

 I started self-harming to find relieve from the mental pain, i had multiple medications to take, my smile faded, i forgot how it felt to be happy, i thought of ending my life and yeah.. it was pretty bad. I became a black hole to mental disorders. It started with a normal depression to a chronic severe depression, then anxiety, then eating disorder, then bipolar disorder, then ADHD and it kept going..
At some point i thought "My life is over" i started thinking of a way to end my life because that time for real, i was hopeless.. It is then that one day i thought to myself "Hold on! Why? What if i end it today and tomorrow was something great waiting for me?" I was right! It is then that i met my current Boyfriend and started seeing life in a whole different view. The depression is still there however, i learned how to stay strong and always believe that whenever something bad happens there is a good thing coming to make up for it.

 This why i wanted to tell you, however much you think your life is sad or miserable, always remember that by the end of every tunnel there is an exit that shows you the light. You are beautiful as you are and you deserve to live and see happy days. When you feel like you're giving up always keep in your mind that there is a person who have been through a lot too, who is cheering for you, for all of us to stay strong ❤
 Joy~ 

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